Gisteren botste ik met de fiets In het donker, met te veel gedachten in mijn hoofd en tegen een geparkeerde auto. B is weg, ik dacht ‘snel’ bij een vergadering te moeten zijn, had van tevoren geklookt en ik knalde tegen de auto aan. Ik maak schrijffouten in mijn blogs (sorry daarvoor), maar ik ga […]
Yesterday and this morning I had terrible experiences. I have secundary progressive MS and because of this I cannot concentrate very well anymore. Especially not on more than one thing at a time. I have three children, up growing. They have lots of fun together. And that’s my problem.
How to talk to one when the others do other things / make noise?
So, this is a good practice of mindfulness. I decided to do short breath meditation to cope what’s happening to me. And I decided to leave, for example, the television off when I am doing other things. E.g. having a friend for a visit. Happy enough we haver more t.v.’s. So the children can move.
Does it help you to know how a short breath meditation works?
It’s to be used everywhere, all the time because ‘ wherever you go, your breath goes too.’ (Jon Kabat-Zinn). You can use it to cope with stress. You can also use it to pause: ‘ Where am I, what am I doing?’
- Sit still and close your eyes or gaze at one place
- Bring your attention to the moment: what am I doing? What am I thinking?
- Bring your attention to your breath. Where do I feel it? What does my acting and thinking with the breathe in my body?
- Give attention to the moment now. Feel your breathe again, here and now.
- Go on with your life. Give attention to how you feel now.
This short meditation (it can take 3 minutes or less) helps me to be back again. It helps me to concentrate on one thing at a time, here and now.
I’ve just meditated. I’ve done the mountain meditation. It is very powerful.
A mountain has a profound basis
It has a top reaching the sky. It is very solid. And it already was like this for many years. Try to imagine it. It is beautiful, it is always the same, except for, for example, snow in winter, colors of the falling leafs in fall, sunnny summer and flowers in spring. The mountain stays the same. Sometimes it is covered with snow, surrounded by rain or storms. At daytime it is lyings in the sunlight, in the night it is surrounded by the moon. The mountain is always there, in all seasons all the time.
There are things equal between me and the mountain
Like the mountain, I have light and dark moments. I have good and bad times. I can imagine to be as solid as a mountain with my head reaching the top, the sky, like a mountain. The sky is as a huge pillow that protects me.
I used to climb. I loved to do it. Now, being ill, I can’t climb anymore, for years. But I think that also if you wouldn’t like climbing, imagining a mountain, even imagining being a mountain must be possible for you. I like imagining to be a mountain. It helps me to feel as solid as a mountain, for better and for worse. Try to do and enjoy it!
My husband had an annoying meeting a few days ago. He came back home frustrated. All the participants of the meeting were ‘very’ busy. It was an evening meeting and some of the participants complained that they didn’t even have dinner before the meeting.
I heard about the frustrations of B. and I had to laugh.
You know why? [Lees meer…]
Before the diagnosis MS for me I already did the course to be a mindfulness-trainer. Why I did it? I decided that mindfulness helped me and that I wanted to help other people with it. Now I sometimes think that it took so long before my illness became visible to me because of mindfulness. Beware: it’s only a thought! And I also don’t know if I should have known it earlier. If it only helped me. I read a blog written by Melanie Greenberg. Perhaps that could help me: read this
How mindfulness could help me
Many research shows that mindfulness can have a positive outcome on the brain. I do not know what that could mean to me with MS. But I think mindfulness, attention to the here and now, helps me to control my body and brain as far as possible. I hope it will stay this way!