MS, mindfulness and me – don’t wait..

…until what?

When I was in my twenties and thirties lots of my friends and other people around me waited. They waited to skip the awful job they had. They waited to marry or to have children. They waited until they would be happy.
And then I started to get depressed. I mourned about being the ongoing talent that wouldn’t get as successful as I belonged to be.
And now I’m in my forties. I have MS. It hurts. I withdraws me doing everything I want to do or should do. And I am HAPPY

Here and now

Why? The sun is shining right now. I am married to the nicest man of the world. I am proud of  my three beautiful children. And yes, MS hurts. But to feel it doesn’t mean one cannot be happy. And it doesn’t mean I should ignore it. It is like it is. I hate to be ill. And I am happy. That’s what mindfulness brought me.

What to do with what there was or will be?

Our minds always think of the past or the future. My mind does too. I am happily trained to be conscious of what happens now, at the moment. Next to my thoughts wandering to the past and the future.Now, having MS, I laugh about the future. We’ll see what happens then.

But now, I am happy.